a sunday at bermudafunk 18 12 2022

* it was silent, as i so poured the springwater into the crystalglas
i took one sip of-it
and must had to close my eyes by the second and third, and fullest fourthed sip
wanted, that it never ends
but so it is good!
the cold, the clarity, the wisdom, crystals, met there amusing in my mouth
sensed this gliding through my inner body temple
"??!! THAT SHE HAS WANTED!!
cleara!
my soul wanted to to drink exactly springwater that kind!" inselove

* was legitimierst du in deinem hirn?
* what do you legitimate in your brain?
ÜBERPRÜFEN
UND
VERBINDEN

CHCHCHECK -
REVIEW
AND
CONNECT

ziel => mit leichtigkeit navigieren und losgelöst im loveship umher
destination => navigate with easyness & detached in loveship around

* "camura mi gittin, sibel?" annem
* "you´ve been in the mud, sibel?" mum
* " warst du im dreck,sibel?" mama

* ..und da kommt es wieder auf dich zu
* .. and there it comes up again to you
*.. ve yine sana dogru geliyor

* a glow
* ein funke
* bir cakin

* VÖLLIG NEIN!
* FULLY NO!
* SIRISIKLAM HAYIR!

* WERDE ICH MEINEN WILLEN NOCH ERKENNEN?
* WILL I STILL KNOW - REALISE MY WILL?
* ISTEDIGIMI HALA FARKINA VARICAM MI?

* soll ich dir die tür aufhalten??
* shall i hold the door for thee ??
* senin icin kapiyi acigim mi??

* willst ma kotzen?
* you want to puke once?
* bir kusmak istermiyidin?

* one time i could rescue the life of one little sheep. i believe, it wanted to go AWOL- it hanged on the electric fence and each time,
in rythm, it got shocked from the lighting stroke - the whole body cringed - the poor cattle!! some sheeps stood around it, stood back
with it and they´ve looked at me bleated and agitated-

on my own i was unable to free it- in this panic i also didnt found the stopbutton of this electrical box and ran to the nearest house.
at a chic villa at a mountain, i ringed wild- a housekeeperlady came- hereupon she called the landlord- whereupon he godisthanked knows
the shepard, cause his sheeps grazed upon his meadow!! yeah!
together with the landlord we jumped back to the meadow, funnily enough i had in my bag a baby bottle with a dummy, filled with water,
from my niece, ha, i wanted to give the sheep water, it was also very hot- but as we arrived there, the shepard been there yet and
rescued the tiny sheep from the electrical fence :" hello, when you´ve noticed it? it was senseless yet?" "yes, just the eyes stood
a bit open, how is it?" " this i will find out in the next 2 hours, i hope it hasnt got too much- i will leave it in my car with a blanket!"
" ohhhhh!"
"that was very kind from you, you probably saved its life!"
"ohhh, yes but very fain! everyone would do this!"
"ohhh no- dont believe that. unfortunately this not happens very much- that isnt to be sure!"

the sheeps observed me long time, as i stood there so full of question and exclamation marks
when i was thinking about his last sentence-

i dared to shout after the shepard:" ahm, dear mr shepard! maybe you turn on nice music in your car?!"
he turned around once again and grinned at me - and nodded at me <3

sheeps and goats are very curious
that´s nice

and sometimes
dangerous

* *" i thank into every world, in every time and into every dimension- and i also beg for forgiveness- (my organs maybe..)
AN ANASHA ( GRATEFULNESS)
i thank all what i do forget or not know yet-
and please let me know, when i could do something for someone!"
*" and i thank all, which i´ve met yet & will meet
which made me to this, what i´ve become today or will become still."
*this is usually the 3d sentence, who i daily say in the morning and also do mean it.
during daytime i count like meditation all the things on, which i am very grateful for.
cause that is a looot, i cant recite daily some-
ive combined it rough..

*so actually i notice, that i sometimes get lead like through magichands to places- f.e. when i decide, go another way, which i originally wanted to go and just go..
be authentic

WE NEED YOU SO!

gems gems gems
situations situations situations
emotions emotions emotions
frequencies frequencies frequencies
words words words
shouts shouts shouts
illusions illusions illusions
delusions delusions delusions
solutions solutions solutions
let go let go let go
feelings feelings feelings
instruments instruments instruments
oneness oneness oneness
awareness awareness awareness
freedom freedom freedom

love love love

" from past emotions there it isn´t possible to create a new future. to change means, to outgrow
about the conditioned body, the past. how you are thinking and how you are feeling creates
your state of being. " doc joe dispenza
<3

yo
switch -
foreverfuerimmer punk!

u could listen loud

another friday night where i could let out all my current frustrations, angers, love and agreements with myself

could share this PUNK-MUSIC with beloved ones, a great audience and guests at the lovely kings´s pub!

23:03 the cops where there --so sad peoples everywhere hae
but then not again <3
(maybe cause inside sat one police man in his free time?!)

thank you for having me, for this smiley still in my face- thank you dome, kneipenfreunde, for asking me, for the other dj chris, that i could play and play and play just through !

i cannot explain in words how much grateful i am for my past- experiences- hatred- love- pain- lovely adventures, knowing this kind of music, my present and presence and the feeling this in my heart and bones and all abilities -

a lot of fun it was to refound and listen to some really great records, ive bought at concerts or bought in record store or which was given me- also the lived memories, emotions returned, power and trust to move on-
that there are still human, who celebrate, act like a "punk"- it gives me hope-

well, i have to work on the matches, order of the records !!
and also at the speed 33 / 45 :D

so, if you like punk music- i hope you will enjoy this energy or maybe take this and let it be part of your further life

a fist into something

THANK YOU ALL!

have a good wintertime *

19 NOVEMBER 2022 SUN

* NICHT MEINE ABTEILUNG
* NOT MY SECTION
* BENIM KISIM DEGIL
 
wirf ein glas auf den boden
und bitte es um entschuldigung
das du es eigentlich gar nicht "kaputt" machen, ihm weh tun wolltest
das du eigentlich noch weiter von ihm wasser trinken wolldesch
 
throw one glass on the floor
and beg for apologize
that u actually didn't wanted to "break" / hurt it
that u actually wanted to drink further water from it
SHSH

* warum sollte ich? / why should i ?
* warum könnte ich? / why could i ?

* wie wichtig bist du dir heute?
* how important are you to yourself today?
* nekadar önemsiyorsun kendini bugün? thanks for this super question earlmasterst.germain and adriana !

* A N O T H E R S Y S T E M A C C E S S O N T H I S F I L E !

THEY ARE THERE! REALLY THEY ARE MOSTLY EVERYWHERE!
THERE ARE EVEN DIFFERENT
SOMETIMES THE POCKET TOO!
ONLY:
* IN THE SEA, UNDERWATERSURFACE, THERE EXISTS NO TRASH CAN
 
 
 
YOU KNOW
I KNOW
EVERYBODY KNOWS
 
 
TRASHHHH
 
ITS THERAPEUTICALLY APPROVED TO SING GO FUCK YOURSELF !

* there exist a connection between my brain and heart
when she will rip- tear, i will act then without heart. heartless.
 
* es existiert eine verbindung zwischen meinem herzen und meinem verstand
wenn sie reisst, werde ich zukünftig herzlos handeln

* WAS SCHLUCKSTN DU?
WAS SCHLUCKSTN DU SO, HM?
 
* NE YUTUYIYORSUN SEN?
NEYI YUTURSUN SEN BAKALIM?
 
* WHAT YOU ARE SWALLOWING?
WHAT YOU ARE SWALLOWING SO HM?

* watching - observing
* swallowing - enjoying
eyes open - eyes closed
* thinking - feeling
* sleeping - dreaming
* functioning / good / living?

* i dedicate tonight´s show my ancestors- and especially my female i thank you really so much <3
cause they did not live such- cause they had whole other worries, dude!

* ist endlich: tot?
ist: der schluss tot?
ist: das ende tot?
 
woher werde ichs wissen?
 
* nihayet : öldü mü?
sonu : öldü mü?
final : öldü mü?
nerden bilecegim?
 
* is finally : dead?
is : the finish dead?
is: the end dead?
how will i know?

why you do this? first, you are laughing, you have joy and then following soon you stop with it, as if it is not permitted for
you, as if you have to be sad
so...you´re face is falling in, you get sad -
why you are doing this like that?
dont do this to yourself
 
* gülüsün cok güzel <3
* i love your smile
it is beautiful

liar must be very strong, when they get faced with truth
how deplorable actually,
when the ban is breaking over them about some truths - like broken glasses above them
this can leave it lying in blood an unprotected heart

why did you come?
why did you come and gave to me so much worth?
why you loved me?
 
* but i dont know how to fight with this!
i only know how to stand there

every end of a decision comes together with a fight
i´m ready to confront the ends
but am i also ready for fighting?
YESSS!!

are we so strong?
YESSSSS!!
 
* ORDNUNGSSTRAFE
* ADMINISTRATIVE PENALTY FOR CONTEMPT OF COURT
* DISIPLIN CEZASI

* without knowing what to do, where to go
she was alone with in her tiny beating heart
she listened this unprotected storm with her tears - throwed her sorrow into the sea
her heartsickness, copious copious
 
that it will take her pain
that salt step on it
she cried to the sea
 
after this day, the sea
wasn´t further this blue, a candle, a gasp of relief which is relaxing
after this day, the sea
ment loneliness for her
a helplessness without a horizon

hey du
hey you
hey du dude

vielen dank!
thanks a lot!
cok sagol!

GOOD WINTERTIME!
+++++++ *********

16 OCT 2022

hello!
* MY DEAR LUNG! MY DEAR LUNG! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU MY DEAR LUNG! // *wer sagt dir gute nacht? * who is telling you goodnight? * sana kim iyi geceler diyor?// * was noch alles aus einem werden kann=? * what yet all can become someone? * kendinen daha neler olur acaba? // * hey, come on please- when now everything is gonna on the right track-- dont stress yourself // * NICH MAL VANILLE HABEN WIR! * NOT EVEN VANILLA WE DO HAVE! * VANILYA BILE YOK BIZIM! // * ..i can imagine..... i can not imagine.....it is,yes, never so easy.// * sagol size, zahmet olmus* danke dir, es war mühevoll * thanks you, this was effort..// * siz buna nasil göz yumarsiniz?* how you can press an eye on such something? * wie können sie bei sowas ein auge zudrücken?// * if the speaker on your ears just shortly gets out...it listens different, ha?// * incitici olur * this would be violating * das wäre kränkend, verletzend //* welchen ratschlag hast DU für mich? * which advice do YOU have got for me? * SENIN bana hangi ögütün var?// * bir daha düsünüp üzülme * dont think once again and feel worry * denk nicht nochmal und sei traurig //* bazen kalmakta direnmek, inad etmek kör bir kisir mevsim galiba ayni belirsiz noktaya dönmek - hep ayni kabus görmek gibi * manchmal stehenzubleiben, aushalten, stur sein- ist glaube ich eine unfruchtbare jahreszeit -an einen uneindeutigen punkt zurückkehren- ist es wie, immer denselben alptraum zu sehen * sometimes standing still, hold out, be mulish- is i believe an fruitless season coming back to an ambigueous point- is like, seeing always the same nightmare // * ich könnte, ich kann bedenken in den wind schießen
* i could i can reservations shooting in the wind * endiseleri rüzgara havaya ucurabilirim * wenn ich meine augen zu mache- wo bin ich dann? was ist das? * when i do close my eyes- where am i then? what is that? * gözlerimi kapatiyorsam- nerdeyim? ne bu?// * i thank, that at the moment here no one bombs our home-dont must leave, escape all ive got here, my beloved, memories, that my life is not in such danger // * there, where feathers are found, the ground get lights up energies stick it into your plants at home, if you took them not with you home when you find someone stick them like a flower into the ground, earth (we just stick the ends into)so terraland is lighten up -asuman sur- // * eine küchenrolle- oh wie schön sie ist!!!* a kitchen paper roll - oh how beautiful she is!!! * mutfak kâgidi bobin ahhh ohhhh nekadar güzel o!!! ama - but- aber- * kendimizin degerini, kimden ögreniyoruz? baska gözlerini aramakta yada basimiza gelenler mi? * our self worth, from who do we learn this? by searching other eyes or from that what we are living? * unseren selbstwert, von wem lernen wir das? in dem suchen anderer augen oder von dem was wir erleben? // ich konnte vieles lieben, nur nicht mich/ i was able to love much, just not myself /cogu seyi sevebiliyordum ben, ama kendimi degil - selbstwert.selfworth.özdeger.=> i speak about, how i came into it- maybe it serves in any kind for u, 2 ?! about what ive once thought it is love, life shown me facettes of love, how i identify, how i did,how i compared myself with others, how i could see, how beautiful i am- tell about doubts, i do have still, if the path, the floor im in, i currently follow will lead me to my requested beloved destiny- if its just an illusion which will get real, or just a one-way-street-
i maybe lead an unusual life- also without a visible safety net-yes and but i am not coming home at all..(my therapist says, that i just do wrong- i should work in a good job 40 hours/week& get more money & live my creativity in my freetime- i would make me the world how i want.so.. but i know what is best for me,not to be a dysfunctional victim of society when i would do her advice-
a safety net i have found in myself. i trust into me now, into life & this great universe- is working for me &you, also.
trust in intuition. love, s

thank you!

may they stay healthy, too

SWITCHFUERIMMERPUNK RADIO BERMUDAFUNK 18092022 <3

* ready for take off? sometimes one isnt really so ready for take off-& but one is then how ever ready for take off- whouh! //* how was your sunday until now? you were happy?laughed? cryed? did you worried something?(hello hello, are you there? are you thinking of your sorrows? are you thinking on yesterday or on your pussycat? HELLO- WELCOME TO PRESENT //* is there nothing more left else than fucking off?// * for how intelligent you think you are- actually?& for how creative you think, you are? very intelligent does not apply, but yo--quantitative (quantitative...:D)---maybe in numbers are you know more intelligenterer or creativererer? HA! isnt that easy..or?// * which information about you would your parents/or them who cared about you, surprise? // * with which face i should look at you? how should i look at you? // *.. güzellik sevilmedi desem?*.. if i would say beauty was unloved?...* ..wenn ich sagen würde, schönheit wurde nicht geliebt? // * there will be noticed, that a heart was unneccessarily injured// * "what do you wanna say (in brackets)(with that)?"
" what you are understand- that."//* who knows you best?// who or what have made you cry last time?// * being brave doesn´t mean, not to be afraid. walk a first step forwards towards the angst //* why i should welcome you// *" artik böyle!!* "so ist es jetzt!!"* " now it is so!!" //
* ..but hey, think once about it how he does feels now? //* i need you to understand how i feel//* why you´ve got more fear in yourself than pain? //* when do your eyes sparkle? //that is extremely important!//* what you would speak out, when you would not have fear against denial? //

also you can listen a story about a happening about what my beloved dad experienced & asked me a question about- whose answer i dont know actually yet- but this sentence:"
so
there is one tragic
saving bigger tragics?

& i introduce you a little bit into the beautiful world of gemstones <3
BUT!
IVE MADE A MISTAKE! OF COURSE IN A RED JASPER ISN´T MAGNESIUM! SORRY SORRY SORRY- I WAS NOT FULL PRESENT-

THERE IS IRON INCLUDED- IRON MAKES THE COLOUR RED !
MAGNESIUM WOULD BE WHITE <3

so---i wish you an unbelievable pleasant moment in your life today-
may he support your believe in your dreams coming true*

thanks for listening, reading, and caring so good of yourself*

so i´ve started just & got more & more nervous- the first time, in an unknown place, unknown peoples- so my mind created the emotion of stress & my hands began to tremble, my heart beated wild & introduced myself--& as i told about the last liveshow, which were the day,a lightfestival of, for claudia, her goodbye into the space & the 27.8. was the anniversary of the death of my uncle it made it not better & had to swallow tears.. cooosmiccc <3

to get the audience into an state of being "here" to find silence for all, & let go of the experiences, thoughts of this day...- ive let run an relaxed sound firstly- which i did not was sure, if they will take this- i dont know aw, if they have silent moments in their life, practice medidation or..?? & also the bar business moved on at the same time, but they were silent as it is possible, too - after intuition i began to read- & to live again some emotions. its craze, sometimes, when i do read, first then i recognize, what i´m reading, offering others.. noticing this combined with this emotion leads really into an orgasm of feeling-& my expression. mostly into a STOP, a pause, barriere of text & TEARS - its like living this happening again through, & sometimes i am more cool or not so cool (: (its interesting, i wonder about myself-) then i am so very happy glad about the sound, i can play- to ease my feeling, state or wound or everwhat...& ive danced- NOT THAT UNRESTRAINED i want to be able- but yeah..
& many things ive wanted to say, i did not & some things ive added on this saturDay yet, ive read. happy that i have & can write so much things :D hehe in the hope, that all what i have to say, to share, is serving also for the highest good of all & for me!
by intuition ive finished the show & danced along--with some other dudes <3 THANK YOU!

some feedback from diverse peoples, some who knew me & from some did not:
" very very good* you´ve really touched my heart, you grandma with a soul & reading like a 12 year old one, go on stayin alive <3* very crazy-but superfine *i had to hide tears in my eyes when youve read about love & merlin* i really will get stuff with me into my home, it is strange, it is nearly like voyeur- to see you private in your living room* i´ve seen a lot of readings in my life through my job, but you are different, its just like you are hmm...how to say, authentic, you are just living it, saying it, not playing a role or so.. but you are dangerous. for the audience & yourself -why? you show everything from you, you are now like touchable..& ive had tears in my eyes, & also you- but this i dont want to :/ to make people cry, flo! - no its not that, it is, you touch the hearts"

AAUUHHHWWW

hm, yea, these are my first steps into a new future, new experience in my life. how i will, can reach people & do shows ?? is this my way my wish? i only know, that this celebrates my heart& soul somehow!

i am a master who is practising-
AND YOU
YOU, TOO!,
MASTER!
"you´ve started this evening with your music set & set the peoples into emotions, girl, well done, thanks!" :D the crowd got increased meanwhile

after then, pretty good artists made their show & it was just a very fine summerparty in the unknown at a beautiful space on mother earth in kromsdorf, near weimar in germany , where we´ve met superlovely unknowns celebrating one <3

merci!
unfortunately you´ll listen not much english or turkish.. in the radio it is different but..

there i go -- in an rebuild old firewarden in kromsdorf /weimar, gemany where once fire trucks were controled.. there are living 15 superlovely peoples, together in various rooms- in 3 to one another buildings, among other things you find like tailoring, repairshop, cinema shows..where everybody is welcome in this place space (youll find a lot of mattresses lying) & where respect & mindfulness to each other is written big. they have an own pizza kitchen & do sell these superdelicious pizzas out,too..a place where you can exchange your clothes, a cafe & bar,& they cook & bake sooulfood & everywhere tiny flowers & garden & & oh so many more!!
a real nice place, to come down-to break free - get off- behind a selfmade wooden door which is leading into a biig space park, where you could find 2 castles & a lot of nature <3
a supernice place to be
they´ve just started to manage such festivals & everything is new hahah, just like the playstarts of these great aritsts for this evening..but no one was stressed or something...no, just with so much love, i am really so glad & apreciated a lot, that ive could play there, <3

THANKS MICHAEL WINKLER for asking me & TAMARA, VEDA, BERNHARD, JAN, JAKOB, ALI, ANKE, KASPER AAWW all these all other lovely peoples & DATA77112 <3

i was nervous didnt knew what to play--even then the voice of knatter flew in- "play just that what you want to listen to, sibel!" <3 and how long i should play & when i should start reading AHHHH..some came & sat & watched me playing records, this was also bit strange for me...but ok...hahha- even they didnt knew when i would start..then ive asked winkler & he said:"start when you want to..!" HAA <3
:D all fine, afterwards -

stopbuttoninbrainfunctionoverhaul

HUSH
HUSH

HI ! LIVE 21 08 2022 switchfuerimmerpunk! bermudafunk*
.its possible, that i maybe effect on you kinda unsettling! but this is not my intention! SORRY! THANKS A LOT! FOR THE TRUST! your precious time and that you are escorting me a bit on my healing way! // "SOMETIMES YOU CAN BE VERY CRUEL COMMON VILE!! --ALSO IF YOU MAYBE WITHOUT KNOWING IT! --DEAR VACUUM CLEANER! // * if you could have a video from a situation from your life, which situation would you choose? // what you are doing, when you live an uncomfortable situation.for example with your body.or with any thoughts or other beings?-* me helps breathing.
brutals much.
if you wanna try once.. i breath full out- then i wait while breathing in counting to 4 - stop- holding for 4 x pipe down once - breathing out 4 seconds, maybe - waiting 4 x counting - and all 4 times hey- like a dicey and i do smile- that i forget sometimes really he! it shows our body, that we are relaxed.square practical good. this was inspired by thanks adriana meisser// * game of transformation the state of being-- game of chance -there are scores of breathingpossibilities, mady morrison, doc joe dispenza, eva kaczor inspiring me also much. find yours hm, cause, we need you! // with a werewolf, sergej & 5 other rednecks on wood from ljubljana, slovenia ( are skateboarders, musicians and artists,too)
i was spontaniously a convoy on their roadtrip in a little motorbus through suisse & belgium- well, we´ve passed a lot of cities- so that they can drive with their skateboards on or in the skateparks and bowls- a aim was a skateboard & punkrockevent in brussels, were they gonna to play- yea well- ... hope you can listen...it is a story about being an friendly alien on a roadrtip in belgium, who was in need of toiletpaper- knocking on a door- and made them fear with my being :/ ------....

so, this feeling of being alien, is really hard. when we think of humen, which have to escape from their beloved homes- caused by psychopaths making war,
and still i notice, that it makes a difference from where one flees- :( some are welcome, some n o t so much welcome that much.
when we think about the animals in zoos- how must they feel??

oh lord-and fear still is leading the masses- or what?
when we do wake up? remember who we are?

oh why not coconut?

WATCH - HOW YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY YA*

THANK YOU! S

READING 23 JULY 2022 at SUBDORSCH, WEINSBERG; GERMANY

---ATTENTION -- LESS ENGLISH / NO TURKISH---

winged from the audience ive started to share what happend to me, what came into me, when ive thought about what to tell on this evening-- intuition thing -
told about the huge loss from our colleage claudia & a letter from her- also..
VYWAMUS <3 a rised master : "with the knowledge, that peace is present as a powerful resource spring well in your being, it is just required, aknowledgeing your faith into peace. if you by example, how many do it, have the wish after a peaceful mind, then you ve got also the faith, that your mind is not a peaceful space, and peace in mind is outside your range or is inaccessible for you, otherwise you would just realise, that you are peace- already."

my dad told me years ago, i should bring the audience to laugh- always again--: "some can, do laugh so less on this world,my girl..." /* draw your corners of your mouth upstairs & give yourself a smile/ *when should i say goodnight to the sun? / * whose hands trembles, when they do selfies?/ p like puke or-a world filled with a regardful, tender humanity-where everyone have got clear,flowing and also warm water- and enough to eat for disposal-..even when this one thought just exists in my fantasy--it saves me my life, or does good for me -what is this exactly for a destinationinvoicebill? is: finally dead? is: the end dead? is: finish dead? how will i know? WOULD YOU MAYBE PLEASE SOME TIMES JUST THINK THE SAME THOUGHT?/ i love adapter/ * irrecoverable/everything is a lie/false everythings empty when you do regret much / * this is not a dustbin 5x/ ive noticed- just speakin german there by feeling, also ive had more time- so ive searched after a short drinking pause for some more stuff by request :D // ive told also from the time, these same times june, july.. but 2021 when i had my depression -
after the show ive listened a lot, that this would be so brave, to share so intimate things, well ive also had to cry at the moment of reading. its just the moment- which knocks, presently, where all the past lived feelings included fall together - microseconds in micromoment & baaamm
when i do prepare.. i think, yes, this is ok, but then.. i also do believe that the radioshows are a huge part on my own healing journey- *.. for then through feeling learning to think
so good.

" UPON THE HEARTS IS WRITTEN, LIKE UPON MANY OTHER MEDICINES: SHAKE BEFORE USE."
regardful rainer maria rilke

:D merci for listening*
love,s