CIAO!!
*folgendes hab ich wiedergesehen, ich habs vor 5 jahren in mein tagebuch geschrieben gehabt- " wenn euch ein fokus bewusst wird, der nicht mit dem schöpfer ausgerichtet ist, und keine liebe schafft, wisst, dass dies ein produkt euerer alten realität ist, es ist eine euch umgebende "blase"- die platzen muss.
löscht sie auf ewig --------- JETZT*! ------------- PÄNGGG! // xylophon <3

entschlossenheit und willenskraft- empfindsamkeit is angesagt- is voll im trend."
- ein liebevoller rat aus dem universum -
yo, das is wohl zeitlos, danke! <3

* i saw, ive just wrote down 5 years ago and now ive met it again:
*"when you notice one focus, which is not aligned from the creator, and produces no love, know, that this is a product from your old reality, it is a surrounding bubble which have to burst. delete it eternal----------NOW*! -------PÄNNNGGGGG!
determination and willlingness - sensivity, touchiness is now really full on vogue."
- this is a lovely advice from the universe- yo, this is probably timeless, thx!

* recorder mobile : neighbourkids, neighbour noise,eggmanbus
* W A R T E M A L !
* W A I T S H O R T L Y (hang on) !
* B I R D A K I K A

* ... so hab ich das nich...---
* ... öyle ben bunu... ---
* so i don´t have had...---

* ist das zu fassen?
* is that to believe?
* gercektenmi?

* DU MUSST FUNKTIONIEREN! GEFÜHLE SIND EHER LÄSTIG! dürfen sie sein? * YOU HAVE TO FUNCTION! FEELINGS ARE RATHER ANNOYING! may they allowed to be? maydaymaydaymayday come please! * SEN CALISMALISIN! * the sweet fruitflies- are there and then again my current flatmates--sooomany they are not, but some hey! they love just fruits and so stuff i eat, too, sometimes the stuff needs time until landing evenings in the bio-waste-container, and somehow i let them there faina little rest of kiwi..they just love it mega!- indeed sometimes they are all gone without a trace! until ive searched them in the kitchen- they hang on at the window or at the spicery area! one time there was applesqish in a tupperware- after i have washed it, as i wanted later to dry- i saw one sitting on them! wwaoouww-what a sense of taste they have got! sometimes its really bit tricky with them, some are kind crassls insistent haha-or at the weirdest places-suddenly they appear sporadic and i m happy about my great reflexes-not that i was their reaper yet- they forced or teached me through this being even more ultra attentioned and slower in my doingsss- im too fast sometimes-i prewarn them always, that it also is possible, that i could kill them by accident, sometimes im also clumsy oaf, that they please also take attention with me- as i sat on the open window on thursday afternoon, i saw, how a fruitfly flew beside me out- hahha- and ciao amigo! and but one flew inside! one with little bigger wings than the others- one flew out, turned in the loop back towards me and directly into my face/nose hey, like it wants to play or attack me softly i´ve felt really like in a comic, then absolutely accurate transverse the fruitfly flew over by my left ear-ssssuuummmm-i had to laugh out loudly! SO A FLYER!!! :D
* i am very glad, that i have the luck of all senses- so i thank so much all everything which makes it possible, that there exists music and artists in any art- what would we
be without?? they are *healers*
it is a great gift to drive and get in touch with your emotions through with it --> precious moments*

to cry is fine / sezen aksu
* to cry is fine
while tears are running down from your eyes
never, do not shame
to cry is anger,crazy hate
is love in the peaks,unsatisfaction gladness
is owerpower grief, short is life
and it is your breath, your breath
to cry in this temporary life
is existence in spite of everything
to cry is thousands feeling which is lived
humanely and enthusiastic,it is a beautiful thing
to cry in your black world
is what you still in love and feel
is to be exist with your all beauty and ugliness
is your existence, your existence

TIME TO SHINE!!!
TIME TO SHINE!!!
TIME TO SHINE!!!
TIME TO SHINE!!!
TIME TO SHINE!!!
TIME TO SHINE!!!
TIME TO SHINE!!!
TIME TO SHINE!!!
18 OCT 2020
* fine liner
* i am peaceful, i am passionate, i am progressing * ich bin im frieden, ich bin hingebungsvoll, ich bin fortschreitend* ben huzurluyum, ben feda ediyorum, ben ilerliyorum *MOBILE RECORDER 07102020* questioned myself this september:
"..aber was hast du davon, wenn du nicht ehrlich bist?
was hast du angst zu verlieren?
ohne ALL IN-
was ist das?"
*questioned myself:
"..but what have you got from on it, when you are not honest?
of what you are afraid to lose?
without ALL IN-
what is that?"
*kendime sordum:
"ama cikarin nedir, dogru dürüst olmazsan?
neyi kayipedeceksin diye? ondan mi korkuyiyorsun?
tüm pokerden kartlari masaya koymassan, herseyi riske atmazsan-
nedir bu?
* "das muss nicht sein!" *" this must not be!" * "bu gereksiz!"
* "schön, dass du X mal deine meinung gesagt hast- das tut nämlich sonst keiner!"
klar ist es nicht toll, wenn man zb. kritisiert wird, etwas gesagt bekommt, dass dem ego üüüberhaupt nicht hören will und gefällt!
doch grenzen setzen und mal tacheles reden, wenn es um dich und deine bedürfnisse, gesundheit geht- geben inneren frieden- und es ist
egal wer dir gegenübersteht. du bist wichtig! teile ehrlich deine gefühle.
und dem anderen bietet man so auch die möglichkeit, etwas neu zu betrachten.
zum wachsen? wenn dieser offen ist. ohne regen kein regenbogen

* "nice hey, that you have said to X once a piece of your mind- that scilicet does nobody else!"
- cleara it isnt great to get for example critizided, something that your egO absolutely dont want to listen und dont like- but to set borders and talk straight, when it goes about you and your needs, healthyness- leads to inner peace- and it is equal who is staying in front of you. you are important! share honestly your feelings.
and the counterpart you serve so, to see something in another view- * "werfen sie´s in den müll!" * "throw it into the trash!" *" cöp kutusuna ati verin!"

*wie hättest du es denn gern? * how you would like to have it then so? * nasil istersin sen yani? * glaube ich das tatsächlich? * am i believing this really? * bunu gercekten inaniyormuyum? * dient dieser glaube denn, was ich sein möchte? * does this thought serves for that what i wanted to be? *bu düsüncü benim nasil olmak istedigiyime yariyormu?

* danke dass es jetzt kalt ist- danke das es jetzt warm ist-
* danke dass das wasser jetzt kalt ist- danke das das wasser jetzt warm ist-
* danke dir, (klares) wasser

* thanks that it is now cold- thanks that it is now warm-
* thanks that the water is now cold - thanks that the water is now warm-
* thank you, (clear) water

* minnetarim simdi soguk diye- minnetarim simdi sicak diye-
* minnetarim simdi su soguk oldu diye- minnetarim simde su sicak oldu diye-
* (tertemiz) su, sana tesekkür ediyorum

* please do not close this window * bitte schliess nicht dieses fenster * lütfen bu pencereyi kapatma

* tau mal auf, hm?!
* unfreeze once hm?!
* erimek. yani sen. biraz. hey ne diyon?!

* ich lasse alles los, was mich bremst
* i let all go, what is braking me
* beni neyi frenliyorsa, ondan vedalasiyorum
* ich bin bereit für die beförderung! das neue zu empfangen
* i am ready for the transport advancement! to receive the new
* nakliyata hazirim ben! yenilikler hosgelsinler
* IMAGE LOADING IMAGE LOADING IMAGE LOADING

ciao! in the story i tell about my experience i´ve had, also with the mother nature- so i must add,here, that everyone has got its own way which its soul made out for you in this life-different fortunes-experiences- i mean, i could have been even get ripped into 1001 pieces of this rottweilerdog!! if my soul,the fantastic great intelligence living inside, would have had another plans with "me" to grow on this situation, then this could have happend similiar

<3 vielen dank fürs zuhören!! thanks a lot for listening! dinledigin icin cok tesekkür ederim

* imagine now a cute hedgehog- and it is sooo much big like in average 12m long, 6m high and nearly to 7tonnes of wheighty. the head would be about 1,25 meter long and the spikes reaches nearly 15 centimeters. would a hedgehog be as huge as this- would you then think more often on a hedgehog, when you are gonna drive through a forest by car -or similar vehicles? would you then think about them? or foxes or deers or any other beautiful/h creature which could arise suddenly from the nothing but
another world reality-mh, cause it is living outthere? and would you drive kindly slowly like at fastest by 50 km/h through then?
imagine the scene, what else you could see all around, by driving slowly there
of course, maybe an animal seeks for suicide on its self..
-i dont know he..
weired,
life,
death-when? soon? ah! then!
then, it was definitely the face you love too
or- you dont like animals??
THANK YOU!!

* do you know about the blue room, somewhere in the lovely endless galaxies in universe? imagine once, this is a supermariostarmessage to you- in fact, there exists a blue room there and everything in him is so really cool blue when you come in, the walls, the ceiling, the ground---so, and sometimes you cant speak to someone you wanted to speak,want to clear something maybe, because he or she or it lives in another world or is alive-it doesnt matters-maybe the circumstances, oppositions,
are not suitable to speak with this person at the moment- or you have fear to tell,or you are angry,or the room isnt in between- or you cant come clear with your child also maybe.. whatever but you have a question or ask perhaps for your gone into the wild grandma-so, but if it is also maybe the case that it is, feels urgent to let go-
then ahm..so do you know about kühlwalda? she is a toad, the close one of catweazle, the magician!- so then you take with you, in yourself someone you trusted in, maybe merlin, or your protectionangel yo, simply some creature you´re trusted in- and beg this one for protection, when you step into this room- it sounds more spooky than it is, my friendo so, then you simply call this one you wanted to speak- think of this one, and ask simply :hey, you- could i have a talk with you,please? and thats almost always the case, cause this is the soullevel-and our souls are so extremely wise- you will notice them one in any case-
and there, you can say all everything! you can let go all out! all honestly-
you can run a riot- you can blare and shout against this one, you could tell about your sufferings with this someone, or of course the opposites..or you can
ask for an advice, you could also run against the walls, make a declaration- you can apologize, too-- like me, cause i´ve killed unwanted unawared a tiny ant-
wäh--all everything you have got in or on your heart, my dear- you could even meet yourself there or your fear or drug and you are protected and safe there!
and you will recognize, how it will change- also in the outside! how you will find peace in there- we can communicate like this, too-
please, dont have fear- because there is someone whos protecting you-
i practise this also, and i feel always much better- and you will see- you will get the answers, maybe a call,changings, maybe a change with this person
..something will happen in the outside- in any case it goes about your freedom inside yourself-- maybe you sleep not well or so---yo,and when you´ve been finished- then just say in peace thanks a lot for the call and talk with this someone or thing,creature..and also by your trusted one, for its guiding and protection- and then you can again outside this coolio blue roomy and leave it- it is very cool and easy there-
i wish you all good dreams and also daydreams!
this information was for your braincelles--with a lovely greeting from your sensory axions-dingdingding

TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF-YOU´LL FIND YOUR TREASURE IN YOU AND THEN:
HUIIIII!! LIFE IS A RIDE! AND SO SHORT!! NO WASTE POWER #

THIS IS JUST THE MISSING TEXT FROM THE UPLOAD ACTINGS- S W I P E I T !!!
...
and also my speech was quiet but so surely,i´ve spoken from the bottom of my heart, there, where i ve found myself again and made this decision, to... leave him all behind.
well, so since then,suddenly something happend- in him. in his heart and behaviors. through this talk he knewed now whats up, he was able now, to notice, watch my prism, and if he wants, to work on his "negativity"... free willy well...he became a (second) chance. so he started also in his time, to change and reflect and to grow on this, his life-and also our appointment of leading this lovely pub. in harmony <3

- the bad but true thing is, that he must have had to be or act like this, so that i can come back again into my own light, that i start to HANDLE, let go- and also for what i stand-to myself,break through and leave unsuitable thinking-believing patterns which borders me or keep little .to come home.
there are always two of it- the one who does- the one who allows- (HOW LONG?!)

through dominic, i was connected now with my heart AND brain. he showed me, how to re-set my own, healthy boundaries; freed me off my old,wounded and not longer useful ties. therefor i am him so much thankful! it is a big gift he made me with his treatments, mirroringsalarms in front of me-and iam very happy, being now able observing my ego-storieees-even i and he went through hell-yeah but its so well being me. my own dream became my own healingjourney- AUTSCHIWAHWAH!! BUT ALL UNDER THE BLESS OF MUSIC (and many more) <3

well, we still live in different worlds-i´m learning and growing still with and through him and about me- or the world- with what i can live and accept-or tolerance or not. i try find out while observing situations,when it is time for being patient and silent, or when it is time to communicate. to clear.
(some things what lies inside of me.)
also his love to this pub is a great supermariostar and developmentjourney for the ghost of- so nobody jumps without reason into the life ha--
even we should may have some different views of everwhat but the "big one love" keeps us doing this together-
the eye height level found way back! cause i´ve spoken not from unreleased patterns- i´ve reached him directly into the soul-level- and he
was open for it.

being honest to yourself and others may be firstly hard and full of fear and the end isnt clear
letting go is hard, too
but holding it is HARDER!
it costs a lot of energy and time
lets be kind he
,my friendo <3

LIBERTY MADNESS - ROCKET <3
the band,once from the near villages from heilbronn in germany,doesnt exist anymore unfortunately- i think it was the first cd they brought out- only 5 tracks but they really can save sooo many times life! biiig thanks for you great lovely guysss!
definitely forever a favorite life-vest song of mine
hope you ll can enjoy oi oi oi

rats nibbling remnants
as you can see they´re fine with it
though the malls are made of ignorance
forcin you to take what they leave
patience is precious but common lets see through it
where your fun ends mine starts to begin

ROCKET I FOUND IT AND UNLOCKED IT

so go on point your finger
stare holes in my face
spit some oil in the fire
dirty tongue suckin at your glace
breeding ground found at the edge of civilization
throwing the skit out of our canalisation

its in my brain
its in your brain
injected projected
the human machine
its in my veins
its in your veins
ejaculating
the hatred and the pain

PEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPLEASEPEACEPEACEPEACEPEACEPIECESORISPEACEOUTOUTOUT?PEACE?

16.09.2018
hey salve!!
it is 23:23 oh clock at a third sunday and i jumped out of my breath into the bermudafunk studio 1 ! the first time after 4 years i came too late- (1h by car from my home) in such case, the lovely data processor starts automatically the latest show of mine-in this first 23minutes you could listen when my guest dominic was there-we a have a pub together-love, the universe brought us there together just in time, when i was in need to find a business partner. and this is for me, i think for him too- a very huge challenge! cause, we are so different from our creatures, where 2 worlds crashes into one-
in this show, honestly i dont felt well with him, cause in these times, ive recognized, that i was on my changing, "enlightening" way- and he was still grim and very nerved, also by me. also i´ve listened today out, my own "wrong"attitudes,my unnatural and unpleasant behavior and conversation against him, buh uhuh!
i found out, that we are showing us each other with our opinions,behaviors, patterns,beings, attitudes many things, which each of us haven`t got integrated, or were not awared yet in ourselves. it was just like that i couldn`t believe and understand there the many different ways and signs of love-
yeah, the moment came, where i´ve woke up and found finally the button of my selfloving in me again! so. i was walking in my peace and learning directions being- but had always to balance his negative vibes he sent out around him- also i was
still injured by his talks he had behind me to others, i found out- but my "blind heart" couldnt believe what happened and i was not brave enough yet to tell him this.
and he thought about me things, which were misinterpreted- well, cause i´m mirroring him also the things he dont wants to look at. we weren´t able to find a way of healthy communication. we were not longer at the same eye height- neither as business partners, or friendship, nor man and woman level.
1.5 years it took time, that i´ve had mistreated myself- i´ve disclaimed my self and for what i stand for. every word he said, or i- was "wrong"- we´d "discussed" about superstupid things u would never discuss- it was very suffocating sometimes and ended up, that we don´t wanted to see us each other- but had to work together! aaahh also the pub and his guests suffered through this disrespectful, sick way- for so long- :/ i wonder, how long it needs time sometimes, until i can heal or act.( but well come on hey,stay cool, taylan!) so, but why the hell i should need such someone in my life anymore?
in these months i´ve made a lot of healjourneys to myself- i´ve reflected everything and healed my wounds of my childhood in the roots-which have brought me into this situation and being. yes, the journeys and insights, were very hard but heartily. i became aware why we act like we do and what the deeper reason is behind why we discuss about bullshits. the day was born.shortly before christmastime 2018,the playoffs of my truth to myself and to dominic.first then i could stood bravely against at my fear, to loose a friend, a partner, someone who i could have once trust in and love somehow.it was a sudden by accident call of him.he knows me well and could listen in my voice thats something wrong..we must be soulfriends. so,then it came the point of my portal day-i felt ready since few days.. but waited for a suitable moment but he also wanted to talk.i´ve told him everything what is going on inside of me- my feelings, his treatments, that we are not the same as we once were, his behaviors, all everything what stands ironly between us and also the existing and reason of the pub data 77112. waouw! one urgent time in my life, where i was or had to be, so much honest and directly- what a chance to grow. while having this conversation i´ve thought my heart will could explode now any time mon diéu!! but my inner lovely soul was at the same time so silent.,,,aeh FULLTEXT NEXT EPISODE SWIPE IT huch !!:)

HELLOHELLO!
normally i try to avoid repeating tracks,because we have these wonderfull millions of songs- but here in this show is a song, jude-the inner me- which came just along in my ears again last weeks like yike!- since ca 2015 ive listened it first time-but it is still my medicine- thanks to all the music world-/evolution/love
STAIR WALKINGS
*i could notice by this original moments i´ve taken- some different emotions-or easyness with in the state of my behaviors im or other piecesparts of mine- are in , how i tackle aehm and that our innerliving joy is always there- to make it easy- hey,ey,it is allowed to be easy, even we have to
go into a inner dark cellar sometimes to see, whats going on up there- to ketch-up!

* it is less, WHERE a man touches his lady, that she feels safe, but much more HOW he does it. it is less HOW he touches, what effects that she opens to him, but WHY he does it.it is less WHY he touches her but much more, WHO he had decided to be,in this moments, hours, days, weeks before this touch.it is less his TOUCH what counts,as much more the energy of his intention.there is no method which conquers the world, it is only the CHOICE to bail the potencial. and there is no TEKNOLOGY, which leads into, that a woman looses all her inhibition, it is alone the ENERGY of his intention.this kind of man attracts a certain kind of woman, one with strong borders and which is also on the search for her highest potential. to open up yourself completely the partner, is the highest treasure,which you can yield
graham r white
*es ist weniger, WO ein mann seine frau berührt damit sie sich sicher fühlt, sondern viel mehr WIE er es tut. es ist weniger WIE er berührt, was bewirkt dass sie sich ihm öffnet, sondern WARUM er es tut. es ist weniger WARUM er sie berührt sondern viel mehr, WER er sich entschlossen hat zu sein, in diesen momenten, stunden,
tagen und wochen vor dieser berührung. es ist weniger seine BERÜHRUNG die zählt,als viel mehr die energie seiner ABSICHT. es gibt keine METHODE die die welt erobert es ist einzig die WAHL sein potenzial auszuschöpfen.und es gibt keine TECHNIK die dazu führt, dass eine frau all ihre hemmungen verliert, es ist allein die ENERGIE seiner absicht. diese art von mann zieht eine bestimmte art von frau an, eine mit starken grenzen,auch auf der suche nach ihrem höchsten potential.
ich dem partner vollständig zu öffnen,ist der größte schatz, den man einbringen kann >>>

*i´M NOT LOST ENOUGH
TO LOOSE MYSELF AGAIN!!!!!!

einen brief findet man auch jahrelang später auf nem speicher..
a letter you could find also years later at the top or cellar of in a house..
bir mektup seneler sonrada cat kati da bulabilirsin..

i wish you clean thoughts*
thanks

HA YOU! DU! SEN!
*dort, im herzen, wirst du lernen,dir selbst und denen zu verzeihen, die dich damals verletzt haben. weil du es damals nicht besser wusstest, und auch sie nicht.
nur hier, in deinem wahren sein, kannst du neu kreieren, mit deiner energie - die grösser ist als schuld, grösser als schmerz, grösser als angst, grösser als wut, die
grösser ist als scham, und das grösser ist, als unwürdigkeit

*there, in heart, youll learn, to forgive yourself and those who mistreated you. cause then you didnt know it better and like also those ones not. just here, in your
central scene, your heart, real being, you can create new things, with your energy- which is greater than fault, greater than pain, greater than fear, greater than anger, which is greater than shame and that is greater
than unworthiness.
* ..just some petty sentences, which harms, hurts a little child soul could be like:
*"oh come on, take learn a lesson on your brother!" *you´ll never can make this!"
"how often i have to say this to you, (stupid)!?" *" dont cry now!"."go into your room, i dont want to see you now!"... isnt such a bit dreadful? <3

*umarme dein inneres kleines kind, du wirst sehen , wie gut das allen tut! das es jetzt auf dich zählen kann...mein papa hat mir mal ein foto vergrössert und eingerahmt und es mir geschenkt--da bin ich 7 jahre alt vllt..es kam mir komisch und fremd vor es aufzuhängen..seit 3 jahren hab ichs mir iwie ins schlafzimmer gehängt-wenn ich im bett bin, seh ich es..und das tut mir gut, hab ich erst letzt realisiert!! ICH ERINNERE MICH! <3 danke!!!! irgendwann vor 5 jahren hat mein kleiner neffe nen schwarzen fleck mit ner autolacksprühdose draufgemacht! jetzt hab ich den fleck weg gemacht. oh love *

*hugg your inner child once, youll see how good this is for all. now it can count on you... my dad years ago made a blow-up from a foto when i was a child, framed it and gave it to me. since few weeks i just realize, how good this is for me today to look at it-cause firstly it was somehow alien to me to hang it on the wall..now the place found space in my bedroom where i can see it/myself- I REMEMBERING <3 thx!!! (my nephews sprayed on this foto glass with a blackcarspraycan- now i washed it away- oh love*
cheeeeeersssss#

WHOU!! irgendjemand dreht an der uhr!
someone is turning at the clock!
* TELL ME SOMETHING YOU´VE LOST WHEN YOU FOUND YOUR WAY
* SAG MIR, WAS DU VERLOREN HAST ALS DU DEINEN WEG GEFUNDEN HAST
* SÖYLE BANA, NEYLERI KAYIP ETTIN,YOLUNU BULURKEN?

- JIM MORRISON- (sings this in a song)
LISTEN TO THE SCREAM OF THE BUTTERFLY* HÖRE DIR DEN SCHREI DES SCHMETTERLINGS AN*KELEBEGININ BAGIRMASINA DINLE

GEBÄUDEREINIGUNG FOLGT DIR JETZT!!

WACHSTUM/VERÄNDERUNG/N PONY UND VERGISS NICHT ZU BLINKEN!
GROWTH/CHANGES/AA PONY AND DONT FORGET TO BLINK-FLASH-SIGNAL-GLINT-TWINKLE AND INDICATE!

erlebt hab ichs selbst unter vielen anderem...in tolle worte gefasst ist das meiste von marika-
war die liebe da, als du sie am meisten gebraucht hast? warum ist das so wichtig?
fühlst du dich manchmal hilflos?
du bist ein teil mit dem kosmos, weisst du das?
"hat mama mich vergessen?" was du in deiner kindheit über dich gehört hast, was du nicht alles kannst, ist eine lüge. deine eltern, lehrer wussten es nicht besser, weil auch sie so oder noch schlimmer erzogen oder behandelt wurden.zb.wusstest du, wie ein elternteil reagien würde oder hattest du angst manchmal was zu sagen?
vllt gab es ein ereignis, zb. deiner mutter,deiner mama´s oma..- dass sie eiskalt gemacht hat. sie war auch nicht mehr in der lage,(dir) liebe zu geben. du hast gelernt, das andere es besser wissen, und hast dir nicht mehr vertraut.
jede unserer erfahrung ist einzigartig-gab es ein schlimmes erlebnis, und niemand war da, der dich dort gehalten hat? warst emotional verlassen da gestanden?
daraus enstehen schutzmechanismen- im herzen und auch im körper und seinem, deinem zellbewusstsein: FREEZING/STARRE - WUT - ANGST
seelenanteile deiner, werden in solchen situationen abgespalten- verlassen den körper- darauf folgen
desorientierung/todessehnsucht/schmerz/

BUILDINGCLEANING FOLLOWS YOU NOW!! was the love there,when you have needed her the most? why it is so important? you´re feeling sometimes helpless?
you are a piece with the cosmos, you know this?"mum, do you have forgotten me?"
what you have been listen about you in your childhood, what all you can not do, is a lie.your parents, teachers, didn´t knew it better, cause they also grown up like this or have been more treaten full of desaster.f.e. you knew how your parents would react/or you had fear sometimes telling things? maybe there was such a bad
happening, which have made, f.e. your mum got freezed. or her mum. she got icecold. also she was not more able to give you love.you have learned, that others do know it better, and youve started not to trust yourself anymore. every our experience is unique-was there a very bad happening- and nobody was there, who didnt hold you then?so, you´ve stood there emotional left?
out of it do arise protectivemechanisms- in hearts and also in body and your cellconsciosness: FREEZING/ ANGER / FEAR
soulpieces from you, do split in such situations- they´re leaving your body- on this follows disorientation / deathyearning / pain
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hey! du! you! vollfulltext available on
https://bermudafunk.org/sendungen/sendungen/switch-fuer-immer-punk.html?r=k&ts=1592690400

i wish you´ll find the magic there which lies in every moment * ciaoooooo*

* I ACTIVATE MY HIDED GEN-ETIC MAKE-UP CONS-TRUCTIONS!
* ICH AKTIVIERE MEINE VER-BORG-ENEN ERB-GUT-ANLAGEN!
* SAKLI KALMIS GENETIK MIRAS TESISATLARIMI AKTI-FLES-TIRIYORUM!

*die letzte zeit muss ich immerwieder an alle gehirnzellen, die es so gibt,weltweit denken. 8,E20 WIEVIEL DAS AUCH IMMER SEIN MAG??!!also, ich habe einfach mal so grob geschätzt in den rechner 8milliarden x 100 000 000 000 eingegeben
trilliarden glaub! ich grüsse alle gehirnzellen!
ewie wesso? ich weiss es nicht

*the last times, i´ve had to think again and again on all braincelles, which are so existing worldwide. 8,E20 HOW MUCH IT MAY BE?? trilliardes? i´ve typed in the machine rough estimated 8 milliards- multiplied with 100 000 000 000!
i greet all braincelles! somehow why?idontknow

*gecenlerde yineden hep tüm beyinhücreleri düsüniyorum, tüm dünyadakileri.
8,E20 CIKTI! KAC SA ARTIK??!! trilyion?? yani,kaba tahminimilen 8 millyar kere 100 000 000 000 makinayi sordum! hepsine selam begin hücrelere!
bir sekilde niye? bilmiyorum
$
AY,
yine SOK!--*
EI,
wieder SCHOCK!--*
Ai,
again SHOCK!--*

HALLOHALLO!!was hab ich getan??
was hast du getan??
was haben die getan??
ne yaptin sen??

HELLOHELLO!! what have i done??
what have they done??
ne yaptin sen??

ALOALO!! ne yaptin sen??
onlar ne yaptilar?
ne yaptin seeen?

"es tut mir leid, ich dachte nicht daran, dass ihr daran vielleicht zerbrechen könntet! :/ ich habe meinen eigenen (un)mut euch zahlen lassen - verzeihung!
danke, dass ihr da nochmal darüber nachgedacht habt- meine lieben!" an(div.)
braincells <3

manches ist nur die aus-wirkung-folge-effekt nicht der grund-

"i am sorry, i did not thought about on, that you could maybe shatter on that! :/
i have let payed you my own bravery and resentment ---forgiveness!
thanks, that you have thought again on this- my beloved." talked to my (diverse) braincelles <3 some is just the effect-order of events-effect not the reason-

"kusuruma bakmayin, düsünemedim hic, bununlan kirilabilirsiniz diye!:/
size kendi cesaretimi ve usancigimi ödetirdim!! affedersiniz!
tesekkür ederim, bir kez daha düsündügünüz icin- sevgililerim!" (cesitli) beyin hücrelerime söylemistim <3 bazi, sadece sonuc etkisi-nedeni degil-
&
"wenn du durch eine harte zeit gehst
und alles gegen dich zu sein scheint
wenn du das gefühl hast, es nicht mehr
eine minute länger zu ertragen,
GIBNIEAUF
weil diese die zeit und der ort ist,
wo sich die richtung ändert. -Dschalal ad-Din Muhammad ar-Rumi-

"if you´re going through hard times
and everything seems is against you
if you´ve got the feeling,it not longer
stand on it for one minute,
NEVERGIVEUP
cause these is the time and the place,
where the direction is changing.
-Dschalal ad-Din Muhammad ar-Rumi- a persian sufimysticpoet (1207 - 1273)
*
susanne hühn:
* in der selbstliebe nährst du dich 3 x selbst, bevor du etwas weitergibst.
1x damit du selbst versorgt bist
2x reserve
3x zum weitergeben

*in selfloving you nurture yourself 3 times on your own, before you give/pass something
1 time that you are served on your own
2 times reserve
3 times to impart
=
+schlafe mit viel leichtigkeit und freude im herzen ein.

+fall asleep within much easyness and joy in your heart.

+ cok rahatigla ve nese ilen uykuya dal

we need to spread love now more than ever

dankeschön fürs zuhören! thanks for listening! dinledigin icin tesekkür ederim!

full text from the show on www.bermudafunk.org <3 aaauuuwww!!

ALOH HA!
push buttons for full text available at www.bermudafunk.org- switch-fürimmerpunk!

* wenn es etwas gibt, das du sagen möchtest- wenn es etwas gibt, das du sagen solltest...
* if there is something you want to say..- if there is something you should say...
* birsey söylemek istersen eger.. birsey söylemen gerekiyorsa eger...

* ich wollte dich nicht damit verletzen, ich habe dir nur meine meinung gesagt
* i didnt wanted to hurt you withit, i ve just told you my opinion
* ben seni üzmek icin söylemedim, sadece düsündügümü söyledim

* bin ich jetzt in deiner achtung mächtig aufgestiegen? bin ich jetzt in deiner achtung mächtig abgestiegen? wesso?
* am i now rised up mighty in your respect? am i now relegated mighty in your respect? why?

* "man findet sich selber indem man in die gegenwart kommt"- sagt eckhart tolle
* " you ll find yourself as if you come into the present." says eckhart tolle
* "simdiki zamana gelirsen, kendini bulursun." eckhart tolle söyliyor

* die überlegenheit- fühlt man sich etwas oder jemandem überlegen, hört man auf fragen zu stellen
* the superiority - if you feel someone or somewhat in superiority, you stop to ask questions
* üstünlük - herkimseye yada herhangi bir seye üstünlük gören, daha soru sormuyiyor

* aman, simdi barisi düsünme!
* oh, denk jetzt nicht an frieden!
* oh, now dont think on peace!

* goodbye trouble, goodbye pain, goodbye stress, goodbye anger--- i dont forget now invite silence in my life
* tschüss sorgen, tschüss schmerzen, tschüss stresss, tschüss ärger-- ich vergesse nicht ruhe in mein leben einzuladen
* alasmagladik endiseler, alasmagladik acilar, alasmagladik stres, alasmagladik
öfke--- sessizligi hayatima davet ediyorum
* you can feel, where universe wants to install / insert you! your bodyknowledge does talking to you all time, not??
* every human can be so happy and creative how much he she it allows to themselfes
do you have a look sometimes in your wroted down notes?
sometimes the answer lies for your next step for the thing you wanted to do also in your old dustied diary. or somewhere deep in
yourself
seven milliards of people and you are unique :)

why not drive directly into the unknown?

keep smiling, YOU <3
MERCIIIIII for your magic touch!!!