* BEWERBUNGSDEMOSHOW FÜR BERMUDAFUNK

* heyhey, this is my applicationdemoshow for BERMUDAFUNK.ORG i should give them 1 demo hour... so :
it took 8 hours in the private homestudio, (liverecording) with and of my good friendo dj tollschock //dreamworldrecords/heilbronx <3 ...then the telephone appeared--and i was not sure at the live cut go on for the lovely phone-- but it was so urgent sounding- the ring- then i saw who called---my sis´- well, she was in a little trouble and it was not a usual time she would call...so-----at least i found out, that it is spooky- should i open up the phone, or let it ring ?! when i do eat, mostly i call then back.. it was not even a feeling who could say, that this call is emergency urgent or not---so...LUCK! ? !
even it is maybe not luck- i couldn t find the suitable word...for the luck. cause we do think, there exists LUCK ! cause things running either "good positive" (f.e. passed driving-test..) or things can run in a "bad negaton" way to us ( f.e. car-crash..)
so--- who says, that a car crash cannot be luck? or a passed driving-test/driver licence is good? so...i think everything what happens to us could be luck. how many times we had luck without knowing it?
if you are too late to arrive somewhere urgent---this has a meaning-which we in our little superbrain cannot grasp in this moment. so it is easier to stay calm, sitting easy in the car when its traffic alarm--enjoy it. if we have lost something from ourselves i think that this huge love_ luck -that is always leading us to love.

and love is not always packed in golden loopies!!

love shows herself in every situation in the best way, she can in this moment. and neccessary for the effect.

* my little nephews told us when he was 4 years, in the car, suddenly:" you can call me florian! this is my name for the next 3 weeks." hahahaha best!

and when i was living with them for some years, i ve recognized, how nice good well superduper it is, when a child cries in the night for his mama. and the mama stands up and have a look or a love. someone who cares.
and i thought of all the lonesome, orphan institutionchildren, or stolen children

* extremely painful matterissue _ a longshort story about a knee_
<3 english version not yet in the internet!

... i do not know time just flew..and after ca 07:55 hours he just touched and connected quite fast some craze buttons on his craze desk machine with its some buttons-- and just said : yes, its done- we´re finished- :D and he also made for me this jingle---
hahha 20 minutes left but after the radio councils listening they said OK to meee juhuu**

this is yobacktothefuturenowww*
04 2014

* trying to understand and fit in the technic at the studio1 in alte feuerwache / old firewarden --during the 1h haha :D

* " years ago one guy told me,one, in which i was in love,but has ended.. that i dance impossible,and to watch me dancing at the disco is horrible. then, i couldnt dance no more. i felt for years like standby mode. i never danced again, not at home.nowwhere. tragic.
then i said this years later to another guy, i felt gravity.
and ive said sad:" you know, i cannot dance, i dont feel it." and he answered easy out:" why sibel? dance just hey!"
:D and then, when i was alone in the streets, i put on my walkman and danced through.
(in this teaching times, ive went through views from peoples in the punk/hardcorescene, which i like a lot, on the dancing place..first.. no one danced,they stood just there and
nicked with their heads.. suddenly i let go the control and ive started to, cause the great music
just flowed through my bones and skin,and i was then brave and kinged my ego, my hurts, my stupid thoughts. i was just me. myself. and fucked off at the end. the music, the sound, the voice, the anger and power, the crowd all of them made me dancing . sometimes when i listen to hardcore i think they scream for me too. merci

i think, it depends on the carrier.
and how you are awake in this moment with your senses.

today i know- here, the first guy was teaching me actually to fuck off his opinion- but how, when you do not feel complete and loved by yourself? my inner was hurted.
and that i should have a look about myself. which tooks time...uhh ja tannenbaum..
the second mate´s easy friendly simple answer was like a PLAY button somewhere in me. and both iam so very thankful! dancing is healing.

* PUNKS would not exist, when our politics would exist in balance, regardful and heartly.
so..who to thank? :)

* all drummers are the hammers!

* the last song is dedicated to mother earth and its creatures- and all the animals ive been eaten yet.
we dont need to eat meat to survive..how it is with children in their development is, i dont know really.. just it tastes sometimes so gooody! fuck!! well, i do not eat very much meat.
for years ago i throwed out even bio eggsss!!!
i eat when it comes to me from alone. when i am invited or know where it comes from. or when some celles really really senses the urge. then, i go to my "trusted butcher" and thank the animal
for his power, his offering and vitamin. sometimes though i resist too. then i have too much respect from the animal, that i cannot eat it. hmmmm. i think, the time will come, where animals will
develope an enzyme, that they will be uneatable unenjoyable. otherwise why there are so many got lactose intolerant? why all the waiting rooms are full with depression human?
how do we treat them and us?

"bio products", what a word for it, of the huge companies, are not that "BIO" species- appropriate! it acts maybe about 3 cm more space..just that you know.
maybe you screw your animal consume a bit lower and feel, what makes this with your body.
maybe you will be awared, why you are eating. equal now what.
add love.
thanks for listening!

20 minutes more than the demo!
my friend heiko my demo maker :) also made this jingle*
escorted me and filmed me while ohu-- i was fucking nervoussss, he did not said a word and smiled like a witch*
the two operating tracks lovely kollegas martin and jo from studio 2 helped me at the beginning hahhaha
i saw myself starting with the demo--
i was surprised how the last song suited so perfectly into the end*

sun 18 05 2015 2300pm

this radioshow is with josh <3
=> my exboyfriend and still one of my best friend* we were allowed to live few years together and lived also how love showed us its many faces/ facets!

he gave me among other evil and so lovely things, and i am him, the way back to my inner punk and sooo much enriching music!!
ive never met until one such wise, tender, lovely guy and im very happyglad that we met and that we are still in love and contact-
now..we wish us each other the best and hang up sometimes ==> also with his beautyful lovely girlfriend <3 ---

(i hope that you are in peace with your ex! and that you can realize, that in every meeting..
we could learn about ourselves- either you grow on your
partners, situations..look at your shadows and conditioned thinking mindghostmodels then.. or you will meet always the same model and fall into it--if so..then it is that you stand up one more time than fell down.it works but...yeah) be a pizza!

its yourzzz <3

(ps.dont forget: delight your heart/ love is winner)

=> no english/turkish/a lot appetite music!