BAR EMMA 23

17 JUNE 2023

HELLO!!
this special evening i´ve dedicated to JAN <3

he came through my mind, while i was searching for the "right" records for this night im going to play- and listened through the rills...

JAN, was / is the one, i´ve met at data 77112 in 2008 i think and who´ve asked me, if he can play some records at one evening there - he is a shy,reserved, sensitive superlovely guy and played so good well stuff of guitar musics from the 60´s and some post punk - ive didnt knew yet-

but one thing catched my attention of his action- cause there was a record playing... and he catched his beer - walked, past me by at the bar with his cooled gaze, cause he has noticed my questioning gaze at him, with this short words and a whimsically smile :" after this song, the next 2 songs are great, too- one is allowed to play the full majesty of this side of the record* they are so worth to listen.."
and he went out to have a cigarette break <3 <3 <3

since then, i have to think there and then of him, cause this sentence is so true and mastermind that it burned into my heart- i cant forget and do the same now.

THANK YOU SO MUCH JAN!

unfortunately it was only one time he´d played there-
one year later ive got a sad message from his friends, which are in a therapy where they "must" take pills for their mindfucks... that he has took his life through a suicide. MAAAAN JAAAAN! :/

and so it is, that when i got asked, if i would play somewhere.. i search the records after my behavior, which are medicine to me, or which energy is needed now for me and at the same time, i want to spread or share in this location- sometimes im surprised which records fall into my hands :D
life is full of surprises, when we make room in ourselfes; are open to receive them.

at the beginnings to play somewhere i was very unsure, if i will be "successful", if i can satisfy the peoples there- but more and more, i was loving and respecting myself, get the training, that they have choosen ME to ask- they want my energy and not if the set is perfect! AND MY SETS ARE NOT PERFECT - NO FLOWING CHANGEOVERS OR TECHNOLOGY ! ONLY FROM THE HEART-
but MEDICINE for me-
in silent wish for you, too*

another great side affect is, that i can listen to them records so very loud where it is at current home not that possible yet aaaauuwww-

this is,for now, the last part of 3 i upload..

HEY, HOW GOOD IVE MET YOU, JAN!

ENJOY YOURSELF*